I have to ask myself this a lot lately. I knew I wanted a child. But that’s all I knew. I did not extend my thinking beyond the number 1. I know many moms that have planned their second child right away and I knew…that was not for me. For one- morning sickness was really hard on me. It happens before anything good. Before you have the cute bump, before you have cravings or even feel the baby move. I felt like I was a cancer patient pretending to be pregnant. Ok, maybe that is extreme…but it sucked. Also- I will never understand why every pregnancy can’t be the same. We should all have the same amount of symptoms at the same time in exactly the same way so that no one can doubt you or judge you because they are comparing either their own or friends pregnancies. Moving beyond that- what about the actual baby. I adore my little girl. I think every mother falls crazy in love with her offspring, but how do you balance all of the needs? Is it an every day struggle, or do things tend to fall into place after a routine is established? Almost every mother I know has either already had her second, or third child. Or, she is pregnant with them now. This has interrupted my focus of one-baby-ness and sent me into a flurry of thoughts that only sound like panic. “Will I be too old in a few years and regret not trying?’, “If V is an only child, will she understand balance or be awkward when she socializes with others”, “What if I never get to use the items I loved using when V was a baby?”. I am juggling these questions, and if you have insight, please share!